...is the number of days of my unemployment. (Officially).
I am not going to lie at you and say that I am very happy about it, and neither I am going to say that it was bad. I have learnt a lot. and I mean a lot. Since I promised myself and whoever in the world is reading this place of mine that I will try my best not to be a pessemistic or a 'nikid' person, I will share a very few things from the many that I had the chance to learn.
I had the chance to travel. Most importantly, I had the chance to visit my brothers in UAE, and I got the chance to see Beirut. (No matter where you lived or where you came from, you have to love Beirut!! you just have to!!). I had the chance to enrich my photography skills and expertise after getting a brand new DSLR, which I thank god every time I hold it in hand that I have a great family and wonderful brothers. I am grateful for the family that I have, that no matter how things turned out to be, they never -at least, said anything about me being unemployed.
There are many things that I cant count I have learned in these 445 days, but the one I have to thank god for always and in god's will forever, is that I have (hamdilla) learned to keep my faith in god stronger.
I love this song. and it is somehow what I have been feeling for a while now. Even though the lyrics have no relation what so ever to anything I have in mind, but the video is somehow exactly what I have in mind. especially at the points where they use what they call 'time-lapse'.
Its where you feel is slowly moving when everything around you are just moving so fast that they seem to be like shadows passing by. I am sick of this. The other day I called everyone I know and is capable to go out with me; some were busy with their girls, other were 'can not be reached'! So I was forced to be back to the old 'me', the nikid!!! :)
Google is moving into the next step to introduce their next product. Google Wave.
I have applied to have an account for over a month now, and I finally got one, it is so great to be a part of this thing, they consider this to be the net step in communicating. Too bad I have no internet at home, so I can play in the sandbox as they call it.
It is still in the development phase and things are a bit rough, and quite boring if you have no one to wave with, since you can only communicate with people whom only have accounts. Unfortunately I don't have the privilege to add or invite people as they did with the google mail. But once I have it I don't think I will let anyone 'yi3tab'!!
I am so excited and I am pretty sure anyone who is in love with this company "Google" will also be extremely happy.
To have an idea about what I am talking about, check the video below, it is a bit long, but definitely worth watching.
Since the beginning of Ramadan I wanted to go there, and I was lucky enough to get the chance to go there couple of days ago. A group of circassian dancers came from Kabardinia to perform in Damascus, and since my mother wanted to see them, I packed my camera and joined her.
I took almost 400+ photographs, but only the ones below are clear enough to be placed over here, not for anything, but if you can see the position and the way I was taking them, well you would understand. I was standing on a 15 cm of concrete (my shoe size is 49, so its a problem) with my left hand around one pole so I wont fall, and the right hand holding the camera and taking pictures. I am not a ballet dancer so I wasn't really steady and in a fixed position.
Anyway I had a great time hanging and taking pictures, and the group performed very well. Unfortunately, the other day I was dead tired, so I didn't have the chance to walk and take photos in Damascus, hopefully I would do it later along with Beirut.
I studied about it in books and every company talks about it, but no one actually does it, you want team work, look at the guys below!!!
Before writing this I watched the 'khawater' episode that was being showed on Al-Resala channel and usually was talking about the comparison about the Arab world and the Japanese world, he said one thing that brought this to my mind! If you place one Arab engineer and one Japanese, the Arab could do the thing more effectively, yet if you place three engineers, the Japanese will definitely get the job done more effectively!!!
When I look into the video I go insane, for two reasons!! One: I always wanted to be that plane as I mentioned before! Two: Look at the amount of trust those people share!! each one of them is sure of his capabilities and trusts everyone around him, you can search the other videos of them, they are called Blue Angles! Look at how close they get together and at what speed!!!
I took so many courses about the teamwork and all of that, no one ever mentioned trust!! I think its the core of the whole thing! and somehow, to my knowledge everyone seems to be discard that, not because they simplky forget or don't believe in it, but I think its because people who created that concepts and told the world about it, took trust for granted and they have to mention it, yet we simply want people to work in teamwork and forget that people won't trust each other!!
A simple example, we don't trust the colleague we work with for 8 o 9 hours a day to tell him how we really feel about the job and our boss, not because we are afraid, but we don't trust him!!
It's stupid and its what making us look stupid all over the world, just open the TV and watch the news regarding Palestine!!!
I don't watch the news anymore, because its something shameful!! Our land is taken by force, mother are seeing their own children killed!! Sisters are crying over their brothers and fathers!! the sorrow and grief our fathers and grandfathers shown in their eyes are unbearable, and still we fight over power... when will we ever learn?
I am not the into history and politics and most of the things they talk about I dont understand, and to tell you the truth, I really dont want to know! But I have learned one thing, divide and conquer! It is a lesson that we took in the hard way, its been 90 years!! The people who conquered us had this thing down to the bones!! not only between the arab world, but between every one, and sometime between the individuals themselves!! Its shameful.... we should be ashamed of ourselves that we are so weak that we have let them place that in us!!!
I feel funny. (not like a comedian, but I have this feeling that I cant describe, its happiness melted in love and blended with comfort, really strange feeling.)
So technically this post is a way for me to remember this feeling, if it works then I should always do it. I had this feeling for an hour now, it struck me after a two hour phone call with someone that is very special to me.
The outcome of this phone call was not at ALL as I thought it would be, ideas I thought I would have if I ever have this phone call just evaporated into the air, and new beautiful thoughts replaced them. I thought if things went wrong, I would be angry, but I am not, instead I am happy.
Memories, good and bad, stormed my head and instead of feeling angry and regret for the bad ones, I feel happy. Words cant describe what I feel, so i hope those memories will once make me feel the same.
A friend of mine have posted this video on facebook, when I read the title the only thing I have thought about, is how to make fun of it! (Since I know the guy!)
Anyway, when I saw it, it was one hell of a video, and I really felt 'motivated'.
